So, there's a few things I have to get off my chest and its' not hair. I've been and out of a few relationships or LTR's as they are called in the circles..... so, I decided here in my little hometown that I would hang that one up for awhile and let my own personal life clear the air.

A little more on those LTR's later, but here is what happened
. I intentionally decided not to get really involved with another man. And so occasionally you run into a man or couple that you like and might have some sort of feelings for. You make contact no matter where you are with men that actually get you off, either emotionally or sexually, or however you might get your blood flowing.

Currently, I live in my very small hometown of Anywhere, USA or Anywhere in the World. I moved here from a bigger city to be closer to my folks, they are becoming more fossilized as we go. Don't get me wrong, they are wonderful people, but underneath it all they are as 'old fashioned' as it gets. This whole community and them are and God love 'em..

Christian Conservative
Right Wing
Fundamentalist Elite
Moral Majority Iism
God Hates Fags-Fag Bashers
Anti Abortion Right To Lifers

I know the readers might think this is kind of harsh for a town billed as "the friendliest town in America", but the underlying tone in all of this is that some people think they can push all of the opinions and "rights" on other people, but this country is changing after this last generation of hateful people leave us forever. I'm all for standing up and waving the flag, but some groups and people take it just a little to far. OK, I'll get off my soapbox for now, but I think some of yourselves will know what I'm talking about.

So here I am. Hometown Sweet Hometown. I do love my folks very much and I will be a trooper for them. It's really hard to go back into a closet so to say that I was able to escape for in a city for more than 25 years. You can just really disappear and knowbody knows much about you if you don't let 'em. And not many people care except your really close friends. So I never told my folks, it would rip them apart. My sister, brother and a few other family members know, but it was just mainly mean gossip. They say your parents always know, and of course they do. They lived your live right there beside you, even if you were miles away. In this case it's just best.

But I wish I could just fix it all. A couple of older girlfriends know and they just stand by me all the way, and they never said "I knew it then"....they just get it. My college sweetheart married a banker/lawyer, whatever, had kids, lesbian relationships, one that broke her heart recently. Then she calls me up a few weeks ago and say "marry me", really she literally begged. I was told later that her husband had so many bad business deals, couldn't handle the money and they were horribly in debt. Here she is working four jobs. Now here we are in very scary ....of the swine flu, and she was just admitted into the hospital after fighting a flu for weeks, it has just gotten worse....